When things decide to dash you about from all sides, there's but a minimal chance of you getting thru it without feeling a pinch in your heart. And when things of utmost importance and value to you step back, the experience is so enriching, it just kills! The pain grows deeper and deeper and puts you on a traumatic rollercoaster than you wish you never stepped into, but i guess thats just the beginning. Better things are yet to take its toll! First of all(through my experience though) you tend to become to the most irate person around, going jus crazy with everything and everyone around you. You start wondering where did you even pick it up from! The secret - you never know and never would!! You stay away even from the things you once liked, reason? - you dont know!

You wouldt even wanna attend to your closest friend at times. You wonder and wonder and wonder where things went wrong and finally arrive at the conclusion that the fault was all yours, somehow! (what the heck?!)Why is thati so?? To actually think about it you wouldnt even realise that things are taking a vicious turn in your life and it is jus about to snatch away everything you ever cherished, and MOST OF ALL, your happiness and your peace of mind. And there you sit staring at the wall with a million things running in your bleeding brain, going numb think and rethinking about them, but not precisely knowing what! Where did it all begin and where's the end? Its all very hazy and remains hazy for a long... long time (god knows how long!!) ... to be cont.